Lyrics: the fear of mirrors


The fear of mirrors

don’t look at this mirror
or you might fall in
the fear of fear
is the only sin
(of shame)
so don’t look at this mirror
or you might fall in
to the real world

I can make up another same old future of shame to doubt
and see how, soon, I could regret this or that
(but don’t worry ’bout worry!)
I can deny that everything is only ever happening now
I can pretend that my life is in the future, but not yet
(living as death)
until I may imagine next a rising sun at dawn
and feel a certain confidence- even though I know I may be wrong
(still)
I claim some landmark “mine” and let this shape my path
here is my heart listening and I know when it beats fast

I claim my instincts and I claim my trust
I claim my intellect and I claim my lust
I claim my shame and I claim my doubt
I claim my future is already happening now

I claim my words and the patterns in my life
I sang the song of should when I struggled to be right
(to keep starting to stop)

I placed my faith in guilt- paranoid- worshiping a dream of hell
but I play “the game of could” now as I question just how well
life is flowing
like a river to the sea
time is opening
like the ending of a dream
only as suddenly
as “over already”

don’t speak of this mirror
or you might fall in
the fear of fear
is the only sin
(of shame)
don’t even think of this mirror
or you might fall in
love
with the real world

life is flowing
like a river to the sea
time is opening
like the ending of a dream
only as suddenly
as “over already”

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