Lyrics: Just Like This

JUST LIKE THIS

I pick up the comb
and drag it across the mirror
my hair stays still
but now life is clearer

How can I get
what I want
is all that I’ve been asking

How can I be
that works for me
and everyone now I’m wondering

so is having what I want
even really what I want
for as I was wanting what I want
I’ve been suffering
from thoughts
of how life ought
not
to be

I’m choosing life
just like this
I’m giving up
any resistance
resisting life
was eternal suicide
and fixing life
has been so exhausting

I pick up the comb
and drag it across the mirror
my hair stays still
but now life is clearer

I pick up the phone
and dial your number
maybe you’re home
and maybe I’m coming over

but I don’t know
until I find out
how life will go
inside or around
slowly up and faster down
how do I
enjoy our ride
right now

I’m choosing life
just like this
I’m giving up
any resistance
resisting life
was eternal suicide
and fixing life
has been so exhausting

How can I get
what I want
is all that I’ve been asking

How is life being
that works for me
and everyone now I’m wondering

so is having what I want
even really what I want
for as I was wanting what I want
I’ve been suffering
from thoughts
of how life ought
not
to be

but even if I am thinking
life just goes on living
with or without thinking
of whether or not
life ever ought to be
at all…
just like this

3 Responses to “Lyrics: Just Like This”

  1. K.ALDERSON Says:

    I like this poem alot.
    Thanks for sharing it.
    Will you please read it at the Lakeside Writers Meeting Wed. 10-14?

    Karen

  2. jrfibonacci Says:

    Mandy Stewart wrote:
    very nice! Very good question about faith as well..I believe fear is the opposite of faith and fear and faith cannot be experienced at the same time. Faith can only grow if the person is willing to let go of the part of themselves that wishes to control external forces. When a person gives faith a chance, their hearts and their lives open up.

    J.R. replies:
    I paired faith and doubt, though I could have used similar words like confidence and curiosity. I think of it like a wheel in which similar pairs are adjacent, like spokes around a hub of a wheel. For there to be integrity or usefulness in the wheel, each spoke must turn toward the ground for the wheel to be useful.

    You write that fear and faith cannot be experienced at the same time. I will agree to the extent that only one spoke is pointing down, bearing the momentary weight- at any one time. However, having only one spoke pointing down for quite a while is like death (or numbness)- at least for as long as that lasts.

    Hoping and fearing to me are another pair, as are joy and sadness/grief or gratitude and anger/resentment/condemnation, and so on. While one may experience each of these momentarily in exclusion, we only know each of these in the pair with it’s “opposite” or partner.

    In a way hope and fear are a single continuous spectrum of one thing- one attractive and one repulsive, but neither one “right or wrong” as in a place to stay, avoiding the other (which of course might be rooted in fear). For hope to be functional, it would open to interest and curiosity and determination and action. Fear actually produces the same sequence, when functional: fear, like hope, produces a shift in focus (similar to “interest” but often called things like awe or alert or startled to attention), and eventually- again, when functional- eventually fear would produce some responsive/responsible and prudent/wise/valuable action. For instance, if I begin to lose my balance and am thus frightened (afraid) of falling, then instantly my hand might reach out to grab a support to help me stay balanced or to cushion my fall. [That fall could be physical or otherwise.]

    Repressing fear, like all repression, may be temporarily valuable, but ultimately deadening- unless “unrepressed” [freed, liberated, healed, redeemed, “saved”]. There are times when being terrified is exactly appropriate- or else no one ever would be terrified!

    By repressing or resisting something, we actually may increase it’s potential influence. Those who repress anger ongoingly tend eventually to passive or indirect expressions of [latent] aggression. Anger is human, as is fear, and to judge against them may also be human.

    However, a famous one said: “what you do not set free from within you will possess you, limiting your expression, and what you do set free will save you.” That is, from allowing the heart to be open naturally to the form of curiosity called doubt, only then can true faith arise- from direct experience- not the [second-hand] belief in “certain words as special” that some call faith. That belief is may actually be more akin to hope, and be a vain imposter of confidence, rather than actual faith or confidence. [or mere conformity- which again has its place and value, as does rebellion.]

    Those who only believe may typically seek more words as explanation and justification. Those with faith are unmoved by any words- of agreement or questioning or disagreement- just as your faith would be unchanged if someone told you that they question whether the moon exists, for instance. That goes back to the content of some of my other recent blogs.

    So, Mandy, at the center of the wheel of e-motion, there is no motion- or very little. That is the hub of the wheel, the eye of the storm of activity, the center of the experiencing of experiences. From that still, empty, open heart- heart also being at the center- there is the peace BEYOND understanding or reasoning or language. That peace can “be with” any experience and still retain the fullness of its peace. That is what has been called the kingdom of heaven- in which there is no judgment against any particular personality nor any respect for any particular personality (you may have read that “God is no respecter of persons”). All qualities or personalities [or identities or forms] are equally worthy of respect and judgment- within a particular context.

    As it is written in Ecclesiastes (and sung of in the 1960s by The Byrds in the song “turn turn turn”), there is a time for everything under heaven- a time to grieve and a time to rejoice, a time to hope and a time to fear. By attempting to hold on to any one spoke of the wheel as “always the right one”- or to reject or repress any one particular spoke of the wheel as never the fitting one, one cannot “enter” their own heart of God. One may instead attempt to condemn and eject God from their garden, which- so I have been told by other people ;)- may rather “suck.”

    So, why was the song called “turn turn turn?” I just now for the first time wonder: is it not the wheel of the heart that turns?

  3. danijela Says:

    Here… I am reading… in other side of mirror… I am taking your comb and combing my hair.

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